myspace

So, i logged into my old myspace today for the first time in about two years or so. I was looking for my old Project June albums from 2006-2007, and came across something even better.

Here's the "About Me" that I wrote at age 19:

i like to savour every moment that makes life all the more sweet. i'm a natural born traveler. i love to travel and explore new places as i scope the land. i want to go to Ireland or Singapore next. and i usually do the things i plan to do. i feel that i have an immense amount of love to give to the people i select. i would go all out for them. something i have always lacked is coordination. and i don't see it progressing anytime soon. i think i might currently be in the process of blossoming into something _____ (what can i fill in?). and maybe after 19 years of breathing, ill discover enough oxygen someday. i'm more than halfway through my undergraduate career and i still have yet to figure out what i want to do with my life. not because i'm not interested in anything, but because i want to do EVERYTHING. one thing i am sure of though, is that i want to be a philanthropist .. if .. when i become wealthy enough and actually do something good for the people in South East Asia who live to work for $7 a day. that's my ultimate dream. and if i wasn't going to UCLA right now, i'd probably be in San Francisco at some design school, because that's my second dream. but besides all this jabber, i'm a simple girl. i don't know what else to tell you. i may seem quite introverted, and i am, but i also love meeting new, amazing people..and maybe.. i can amaze you too somehow. 

Here's a blog entry I wrote from 7 years ago at age 16. holy shit, that's old:

May 8, 2005
"Theory"
current mood: bouncy

i have this theory. that in a thousand years or so all of the world will become bi-racial, tri-racial, whatever. point is, everyone in the world will become mutts and racism will decrease tremendously as there will be no pure race. but people in society always have something to bitch about, so they probably say something like saying "oh your 1/20987453th of a percent black so i hate you." this theory of mine also leads me to believe that intermixed species will occur. it will be possible to produce monkeybirds like in the wizard of oz. this goes for the human species also as it will also be possible to make half-human half-horse creatures such as umm manatars i think. yeah i think im right. gene manipulation will be a common process. oh and that goes for cloning as well and human preservation in the means of freezing into the future. oh and hover cars like in futurama. i think too much sometimes. i think i can be the next nordstadaumus. its the guy who lived like hundreds of years ago who predicted like what would happen in this century, like stuff about wars that would happen and earthquake crap. new topic. i think im going to become a humanitarian. ive been thinking about it for some time now. i watched Hotel Rwanda yesterday and it was sad. "people see what happens on the news and say 'oh how horrible' then go back to eating their dinners" -a guy from the movie. its very true too. i hate how everyone always talk about how bad hunger deprivation and poverty in third-world countries have gotten and do NOTHING about it. i mean i at least attempt to help by donating old clothes to tsunami relief. i hope to be able to further help people by one of my life goals of joining the peace corps for 6 months. i dont think i'd be able to do the peace corps for an entire year though, cause i'd complain too much about living in those conditions of not being able to shower daily, having bugs everywhere, and no fast food. yes, so six months it is. maybe four months if i cant handle six, but nothing less than two months. i hope to acquire the FBI scene research career that ive been wanting for a while when im older. but you have to be extremely smart for stuff like that. so yeah, that sort of kills my chances to be apart of that whole investigative research department. i also want to go into medical research so i can make medicine. then ill be able sell drugs under the counter, so to speak, and make bajillions. well not really. id want to make medicine to find cures for things and that whole saving the world junk. but i hate chemistry and biochemistry, therefore i dont think ill have the patience for that either. lol. whatever christine. maybe i can get a job where i can be like a human confessional stand, where all the celebrities can tell me their juicy secrets in confidence that i will keep it to myself while i get paid 200 dollars an hour. id be good at that cause im good at keeping secretive secrets. ah. unreachable dreams. who the hell ever said that dreams come true if you put your mind to it because that is completely false. it is only a psychological mechanism for encourage children to be motivated with hope in that they will become successful in reaching their goals when they're older with uncommon examples of the few successes of the few americans in the country who actually do achieve their aspirations such like that bill gates guy who one day decided 'oh im gonna make the world happy by making a chip for microsoft' or whatever he did. persistence is only persistence for everyone else who do put their minds to their goals but are not actually able to pursue them. this goes for all the mexican illegal-immigrant in santa maria who try their hardest to be successful in this so-called freedom country where they can only be successful to their extent that most can get a job for a little above minimum wage, however their existence is not documented as they do not have legal citizenship papers. it is unfair that those without these papers are not allowed to go to college or have their licenses because they are not legal citizens. ill continue my thought on that next time. as for now, i am hungry and in need of food, but am not as needy as the hungry children in chongo or zambawa africa. damnit, ive made up my mind. im going to be a philanthropist when i have enough money to become one. yep.