can i move forward already

the more i'm bored, the more prominent my single status seems. and the more prominent my single status is to me, the more i consume myself with memories from my past relationships. i caught myself reading over old emails from my last relationship tonight and i'm not sure how i feel. it made me laugh and smile, as i remembered feeling that genuine love and happiness, but then it also made me feel sad and lonely because that's not present now. i don't think that this discontentment is from not being in that particular relationship anymore, but from just being alone in general. i haven't had a kiss since my last bf, which has been close to a year now. shit, i haven't even held hands with anyone or been on a date, let alone anything remotely intimate with anyone. and i miss that. i miss the intimacy, the messages, the texting, the connection, the support, the love, the butterflies, the contentment, the excitement, everything. so why haven't i moved forward yet? am i being too picky? i could easily let someone i meet at a club makeout with me, but i don't. although, it's mostly because i think that's tacky and not really my style. i just feel like i need to be so careful now with the next person i want to be with. i feel like i'm getting old and that i can't be so naive anymore. i can't have these ideations of romantic fantasies with just anyone that aren't actually that realistic anymore. but with this caution also comes a lot of fear to move on and try new people? am i just afraid of getting hurt again? that could be the reason under everything, but even i'm not sure. maybe i'm just too determined to wait for something that feels right, genuine, mutual, and compatible that i'm overlooking potential people who could become that overtime. but then i have this whole mantra of following my instincts with attraction and i haven't found anyone that i'm instinctually attracted enough to yet. but i don't want to be alone forever. i'm torn between waiting for something right and wanting to just move forward already.