a lot of cluttered thoughts right now.

i think i'm going under a lot of stress right now and most of it came up within the past two hours. i was set on going to hang out with friends tonight at kbbq and 10 mins later decided not to go, and then 20 mins after that i was convinced again to go and i'm glad because it was nice seeing everyone. i didn't eat though cause i've already had my share of being a fatass this for the past 6 days already. anyway, 20 minutes after i got there, i got a call from my dad saying that he needs me to go home tomorrow to help out at the restaurant.. which is fine, except i already made plans for friday and saturday. and friday is already going to be stressful for me before i even found out i needed to go home. i have class registration tomorrow in the morning, a skype meeting/appointment with some one tomorrow at 1pm, and was going to have dinner in LA with my good friend cause she wanted me to meet her new bf. and saturday i had a paid gig that i was going to do in the afternoon and then go to LA at night for a friend's bday. SO, i just cancelled all those plans about an hour ago, so that i can go home. and i'll have to leave tomorrow after my skype interview, so probably around 2pm. it takes about 3-4hrs to get to my town and i'll need to go straight to the restaurant and try to make it by 6pm. i'm pretty exhausted from stress and i need to pack soon. i wasn't planning to go home until sunday. i don't even know how long i'll be staying home, but hopefully not obligated to stay that long, because i need to do other things in the OC. in addition to that new stress, the stress from earlier this week is still on my mind. and to further add to that, i'm just feeling kind of conflicted with life in general right now and i'm not really sure what i want. COOL.