past week

been feeling kind of empty lately. been thinking about him again. distractions haven't been enough. been going to yoga and pilates a lot, 4 times this week. losing interest in learning guitar for some reason. my momentum for a job search has declined. been writing in my moleskine journal more often.  been eating both healthy and unhealthy foods. social life is okay, but feels meaningless. work is okay, getting a larger case load of patients. avoiding any guys who i feel are on the pursuit, uninterested right now. unsure of what i'm looking for.

guy friends

i'm starting to question whether they truly have no ulterior motives.