void

i definitely feel a void in my life. i miss him. when i think i'm pulling through, a few moments later i break down again. i hate this deceiving cycle. even though i miss him, i can't shake off feeling like i'm beginning to forget how it feels like with him anymore. i almost don't remember how to interact with him. it's becoming just a vague and familiar feeling. the vividness is fading. i want it to all fade sooner.